Dating Woes

It gets harder and harder to not take it personally. After the stress of putting yourself out there, the energy that goes into pursuing and planning a date and the laundry list of unknowns that surface after even just a first date, rejection never gets easier. 

Although, that’s not what rejection is for. These experiences are meant to shape me, not define me. 

A long time ago, there was a little girl sitting on a swing on the playground pondering the things in life that were too big for her to grasp. She wondered when and how she would find and be loved in this lifetime and imagined the beauty that would emerge in her life once she found it. She dreamed of someone loving and caring for her unconditionally, picturing the sweet and warm feeling inside of someone looking at her like she was their world. 

Little did she know, love would make itself known in her life in many ways. Her heart would be filled with platonic love from the girlfriends who would become her support system through both the darkest and lightest of times. 

Her hobbies would bring so much love to her life that sometimes it would feel overwhelming. Her rich passions for life and what it has to offer would appear as love in the most profound and meaningful way. 

Her desire for connection would bring love to her in ways that she wouldn’t be able to notice at first. But as she began to see the beauty in others and what they bring to the world, her ability to connect would attach to the strings of her heart and tie them tightly in a neat and pristine bow. 

Maybe not then, but soon, she would realize that she didn’t need love to complete her. She herself was full of love and that is what made her complete already.